EARTH LOG

OCTOBER 2009

by Celia Fenn

image by Jean-Luc Bozzoli at www.eyewithin.com

30th October : Chaos and Form...The Flower of Love and the Patterns of Becoming.

Well, here I am in Buenos Aires. I like this city, and having been here several times before, it almost feels like home from home. My Spanish is improving and I can get around without too much difficulty. But, this time truly feels different. For one thing, Buenos Aires is in the grip of an historic heat wave, with searing and muggy days and storms at night. Yesterday, there was also a strike on the subways at rush hour, and several strikes and demonstrations are on the go. The chaos factor hit me on arrival at the airport. The flight was wonderful (kudos to Air Malaysia one of my favorite airlines), but the journey from Ezeiza to where I am staying was, well, interesting. There was a demonstration on the highway, and so we had to take a long circuitous route through heavy traffic and heat.

So, what am I doing here. I am offering a workshop on the Divine Feminine energy, and the opening of the Rose Stargate and the Rose Grid for the New Earth. For me, the question initially was why here, in this chaos. The answers were interesting. Firstly, I was told by Mary Magdalene that I was sent to Argentina to do the first Sacred Rose group meditation because Argentina is led by a woman. Now I know that Cristina Fernandez is not very popular at the moment, as the ills of the country are laid at her door, but she is a woman and one who tries to keep connected to her femininity. So, she represents a different energy or vibration to male leadership. It is a pity that our tendency in the western world is to be non-supportive of our leaders in general. Anyway, the second reason is precisely the Chaos factor itself.

Archangel Michael and Mary Magdalene are now in the process of assisting with the grounding of the Rose Grid on the Earth. It was explained to me that Chaos and Form are the normal processes of change and transformation, and that they are accelerated right now as we move into higher and finer vibrations. I was told to think of a kaleidoscope, where the original pattern breaks down into a chaotic swirl of color before the new pattern takes shape. So, here in Argentina, where there is a great spiritual awakening happening right now, the chaos is a reflection of that moment when the pattern collapses into a swirl before it reforms into something new. What that new pattern will be is determined by the strength of the intention that goes into the Creative process by those who are aware enough to be cocreators of a New Reality.

Now, this is an "inevitable" process, and it goes together with growth and expansion, for when you are ready to grow into a new pattern of being, then your old one breaks down allowing the new one to begin to form. Many of us get "stuck" at this point. We take this personally and start to analyse what went wrong and what we are doing wrong. Why are we blocked? we ask, why is nothing working out for us, individually and as a collective? Then we move into "woundology", to quote Caroline Myss, and start to look for what is wrong with us to cause this breakdown. So much time is taken up with "healing the wounds" that we fail to move into the next vital step of holding our energy with intention as the new pattern forms and we rise up the spirals of light to a higher and finer vibration of Love expressing itself as form. The new pattern of light takes form.

Of course, if we spend too much time on the "wounded" process, then that becomes our intention and we proceed to create another wounded pattern and we may not rise into the higher patterns of light that await us, until we are ready to give up the "wounded" self and embrace our Perfection and Divinity. Rising into a New Pattern of Light is a gift and a blessing. If we can accept the breakdown into swirling chaos with a strong nerve and a steady heart, and an optimistic outlook coupled with a strong intention, then we will indeed ride the waves of energy until we emerge into our new pattern of light.

So, here I am in Buenos Aires with the work of creating a new pattern of Light, both personally and on the Collective level. On Sunday, we will create a group energy that will formulate a new pattern based on what I call the "Flower of Love" or the "Sacred Rose". This pattern will be the signature of the Rose Grid and the base pattern for a new social and communal way of life on the New Earth. We will be guided primarily by Mary Magdalene as the Feminine Christ energy, and Archangel Michael.

I am truly looking foward to this event and sharing the energy with all of you. These are blessed times and chaos and form are vital parts of the creative process. Can we celebrate the chaos as part of creation and can we guide the energies through our creative intention? We are all Masters of Light and Creators.....we can do this when we accept that we are here to experience our inner Divinity as Master Creators and Weavers of Light.

18th October : The Quantum Shift and the New Reality....Now.. We are once again in a cycle of intense inner shifts and changes. It feels to me like this is the "big one"...the moment when we make that Quantum Shift!

A few days ago I had a dream. It was fairly complex, but the essence of the dream was that I had made a huge shift and I had "arrived" in a new place, but that my physical being was yet to "catch up" with this shift in order to make full sense of it.

I have also been told by Archangel Michael that the 9:9, 10:10 and 11:11 portals this year will "lift" us into this new awareness, so that by the 12:12 we will have integrated what is necessary to make this shift a part of our inner and outer reality.

I have also noticed recently how many of us who teach and channel have been through experiences where we have been "down" or inactive for a while. In my own case, I needed to have very minor surgery a few months ago that necessitated a general anaesthetic. I was told by Michael that this "time out" allowed for a very quick but major "recalibration" of my entire system, like rebooting a computer after an upgrade. Which, of course, links up with the dream I mentioned earlier. Along with this shift has gone an increasing sense of dissatisfaction with what I call the "ascension comfort zone".

Yes...the "comfort zone"...I think it feels to me that we are becoming so accustomed to the idea of chaos and change as a way of life that we are not seeing what is really happening. Or maybe, we just haven't caught up yet. And yes, I am speaking for myself and my own experiences.

The channels I do with Archangel Michael speak about the New Earth as "Now". They speak about Unconditional Love, Oneness and Miracles and changed perceptions. Yet, as I speak with people and listen to the voices of Lightworkers, I have the feeling of "not there yet", or deeply wishing to be there.

But we are there. Now.

We have reactivated, realigned, recalibrated and brought online our Light Bodies. It is done. We have activated our crystalline Pineal glands. It is done. We are there. Now.

But we are still thinking and acting as though something were still to happen, or we are going over the same territory again and again. The Quantum Shift has happened. We are there. And yet is difficult to express quite what it is and means as we "feel" our way forward into the New.

This is how it "feels" to me. The Universe in Love. All is Love. Every experience is Love, Growth, Expansion. The Universe is designed to keep expanding the nature of Love. Love, and its expression, keeps getting bigger and more beautiful every day. Yet, we still seem to focus on the "evidence" that we live in a traumatic world of chaos and suffering that is in danger of being destroyed.

Perhaps, as a Collective, we are just afraid to open ourselves to the overwhelming experience of Love. Maybe it is too much for us to bear, that we are so loved and so honored, and so we create illusions and stories to validate our perceived unworthiness to receive the great abundance of Love that is offered to us.

I just finished watching a new movie called "Passengers". It is about the "survivors" of a Plane crash. The twist at the end of the movie is that no one survives, but those who think they have are being assisted and supported through a process of adjustment to their new reality by angelic beings, until they can move on in Peace. I was so touched by this perception of reality as deeply supportive and loving. The first time I watched the movie, I felt, in turn, uneasy, uncertain, bored, judgemental and, eventually, fascinated. I watched it a second time, and then, understanding the love that motivated everything, I was awed by the Love and Support for every being that was being suggested.

I feel that maybe we are in a similar process. To me it feels like we went through "the end" in that period between 1998 and 2005, and yes it did feel like a plane crash to many of us. Now, we are in the "New Earth". Those of us who have worked this out, have come to terms with the "death" of the old and are "moving on" into the New. The rest are being "assisted" to come to terms with the "death" of the old reality and are rebirthing into the new in their own way and at their own level of capability. For this is a new earth entirely, and we have all "died" and been reborn into this place, this new reality.

What is it? Well , I could explain it as a Human Angelic Reality, a place where Divine Humans express their essential nature. But what does that mean? For me, two things.....firstly, the Universe is Love and everything that happens is a gift of Love, even if we cannot fully comprehend all of what we can see initially. Until we can see with the eyes of Love, we will never "see" true reality. This is also so much more than "non-judgment". It is seeing everything in a "Unified Field" that is created, produced and manifested only from Love. It is understanding that everyone and everything in our (unified) field is a gift of love. It is understanding that the nature of Love is to expand and become more and more radiant. And that to be a part of the expansion of love, we are challenged to move beyond our "comfort zones" and embrace the ever increasing and expanding blessings of love.

Secondly, it means understanding that when we cease to limit our perceptions by the expectation of negative events, we allow for the creation of the "Dream of Love", as I will call it, where everything is Love, is created by Love and supports the expansion and expression of Love in our lives. This change in perception fires the neural system and the pineal gland, and brings "online" many of the higher gifts that are our birthright in the New Earth.

In this state of "Unified Field Essence", we will begin to "see" what was not "there" before, but of course was always there! The Love. And those who are the agents of that Love in both the physical and the non physical realms.

Ultimately, we will "see" beyond the veils of illusion, because the illusions are what kept us from the experience of the full power of Unified Love. Reconnecting with the Love reconnects us with our power to be expressions of that Love. We cannot express Unified Field energy by focussing on the negative, the darkness, the dualities, for this takes us into the illusions and the stories that we create to hide the Love. Only by seeing and expressing the Love can we access the Unified Field potentials within our own Being and within the Collective experience of Being on our Planet.

It is indeed time for our physical reality to begin to express our Divinity and our potential to be Angels of Love in every way.

The Quantum Shift, for me, is about this, allowing physical reality to shift into patterns, coherent patterns expressing Divine Love for all of us at all times. And to perceive and feel these patterns at work at all times.

It is also about seeing and perceiving the "unification" of Spirit and Matter, not only within ourselves, but also in the world that we project and create. To be able to see the "miraculous" is not just to be able to create events that ensure that we survive in comfort and wealth, but it is to experience the numinous and radiant aspects of daily life. To be able to see the angels that enter life every day and are part of everyday reality.

It really is time for our physical bodies, the physical vehicles of our Soul's Light, to begin to perceive and express the Divine Light that we all carry in our every day lives. The Divine Light that we all are.

The portals of 11:11 and 12:12 will help us to align with the Quantum shift and to find the courage and the strength to release our insecurities, and to finally embrace the Love that we Are in our Lives.

7th October : Becoming an Instrument of God's Peace and...our Relationship with Animals

Well, guess where I was today!

On behalf of the Starchild Children's Foundation, and as part of our Community work, we donated 300kgs of Animal Food to the local Animal Welfare. It was something that we had planned a while ago, but it seemed like one of those happy synchronicities that it happened now, at the beginning of this month of October.

At the beginning of the month I had something of a struggle to get focussed. I had a very bad bout of Spring Hay Fever, and just seemed unable to get the monthly energy channel"out there" until the 4th of October. In the Channel, Michael spoke about Peace and becoming an Instrument of God's Peace, and I recognized the words from the prayer of St Francis. Then, I discovered that the 4th of October was the day of St Francis, and suddenly it became clear why the channel needed to go out on that day. It was to align with the energy of Francis and Claire, that will be such an important part of the New Earth energy. Just as Jesus and Mary Magdalene were Avatars on the Golden Energy of the Christ Consciousness, Francis and Claire were the Avatars of our relationship with the Earth Mother herself and those who live on her, all our "relations" as the Native Americans say. I am going to work in Assisi in Italy next year, to celebrate the energy of Francis and Claire...but back to today!

One of the things that Michael has shown me very clearly, in the last few months, is that how we live and the choices that we make in our everyday life, determine the vibration that we will carry in our body and our ability to move forward with the ascension process and to fully benefit from the higher vibrational energy. We cannot go on living in the same dense and ignorant ways that we did in the past. And yes, that means making new choices about what we eat and drink and how we relate to the animals that share the planet with us.

This is not a judgement, but an observation. People will make the higher vibrational choices when they are ready and when their soul leads them forward. Those who are the pathfinders are already understanding that the choices that you make in your life determine your level of frequency and the amount of light that you can carry on a daily basis. And here I would distinguish between people who can carry light when they meditate and channel, and those who can carry that same level of light all the time! For indeed, the "master" is the one who carries the light all the time, and who lives the light in their daily choices.

It really amounts to living and speaking your truth at all times.

And so, here I will share some of the ongoing choices that I am making to try to move towards a new paradigm of life. The work that I do with the Starchild Children's Foundation is my way of becoming involved with the wider community in which I live and sharing in a material way from the abundance that is sent to me by those who appreciate the work of Starchild...and thank you for that. We try to use your money wisely. This month, we donated ZAR 10,000 to the "Little Angels" home for Children with Special Needs, that is just a few blocks from where I live. We also bought them a new tumble dryer to help with the load of washing for the kids in the rainy weather. And, we donated 300 kilograms of Dog Food and 30 kgs of Cat Food to the local Animal Welfare or Animal Shelter, which in South Africa is run entirely by public donation with no government support.

Here is a picture of me, today, with the Public Relations officer and some of the Dog Food. It was raining, by the way, and Rocket the Great Dane was heading for cover instead of posing with us.

Is this what it means to be an instrument of God's Peace? I think so. Francis and Claire worked to bring Joy to those who had nothing, and so, in their honor, I try to bring Joy and Hope to those who have none. Is this not what Unconditional Love means. I know that we tend to think it means "giving with no attachments", but I think it goes further than that. It means giving in order to bring Light, to be an instrument of God's Peace and Love, and to give with the purpose of Being the instrument of God's Love and Light, that God's grace may work through us and that those who walk in the "darkness" may feel that Love and Light and Hope.

And, the more of us that walk this path, the more Light and Love there will be on Earth. The more "instruments" of God's Peace and Light that there are, the brighter the Light and the more the awakening that can occur.

I ask of you, can you not also do something like this in your community? Can you also be an Instrument of God's Peace where you live?

I think also, that as we raise our vibrations collectively, our relationship with the animals will change. They will become our friends and our partners on Earth. As we learn to communicate with them, we will understand the great gifts that they give to us on a daily basis. We yearn to connect with extra-terrestrial civilizations, and yet we are still to learn how to communicate and cohabit with the sentient and intelligent beings that share our Earthly home.

And yes, inevitably, this must include the question of whether we eat them as well. I learnt also that this month of October is international Vegetarian month, in honor of Mahatma Gandhi, who was a vegetarian. And yes, I am living at the moment on a mostly raw food and vegetarian diet. I say mostly, because I still eat eggs, and fish very occasionally, but I prefer to eat vegetarian. And, it is ok to eat as you choose, but for those of us seeking to anchor higher and finer vibrations of energy in our physical bodies at all times, it makes sense to eat high and light on the food chain, and that means primarily eliminating animal protein in favor of vegetable forms.

So, that beings me to another recent change in my life that I spoke about earlier - the Urban Farm that I am sharing with my neighbours. We are eating greens from our veggie garden, and the Chickens have just produced babies, lots of them.....an interesting experience!

Here are three of the newly arrived little ones on the Urban Farm:

No, we are not planning to eat them, but to find good homes for them. Here is my neighbour, Michelle, with one of the hens that she reared from an incubated egg. The chicken goes by the name of "Twinkle Toes" because of the way that it walks, and it thinks that Michelle is its mother.

And here is the "dad", his name is "Chief" and he likes to live up to his name. He also likes to crow at the crack of dawn, but I have got used to it by now!

So, here we are in suburban Cape Town, edging our way towards a new paradigm of living. A way of life that takes into account that we are living on the outskirts of one of the biggest cities in South Africa, but that we can also be a small scale home "farm". This is also about becoming an instrument of God's Peace, and developing a new relationship with animals and plants.

When I first moved into this house I had a wonderful rose garden, and all sorts of annual flowering plants. It was beautiful. Now I have an Urban Farm! Well, I guess there is room for roses on this farm as well, they just don't seem to be getting as much attention as they used to!

In many ways it reminds me of how my grandparents used to live, with a kitchen garden and fruit trees that supplemented the diet in the lean post war years. I can still remember eating the sweet ripe fruit directly from the trees, and eating the fresh veggies that grew in the garden. The coming of agribusiness and cheap mass produced food meant that this kind of lifestyle fell away. But, now is the time to return to an understanding of how nature supports us if we support nature. And, in so doing, Becoming an Instrument of God's Peace!